July 22nd 2020
Breakfast : ½ pint milk, 1 peanut butter sandwich, 3 oz oatmeal, 6 prunes. Lunch: 1 chicken patty, 1 biscuit, 6 baby carrots, 1 peanut butter sandwich. Dinner: 1 corndog, 1 peanut butter sandwich, 4 prunes.
Here I am again pen in hand, trying to find a meaning in the insanity that swirls around us all. I am grateful for getting 9 hours or mostly uninterrupted sleep last night, which sets me up for a lot of work getting done. There is much to complain about and be unhappy about, and I do my best not to let that take control over me. Remember , when you cannot change the situation, treat it like small stuff and work with it, not against it. I got my brother Jim Ulrich on my visitors list and after 2 months I called him Monday night at 9 pm. I had been thinking of him and not heart from him so I rang , with 4 guards around me listening, so I guess we called. He needed that call and I am grateful I was able to do it. We get 2 “trys”, if the number you call is not answering, that is your first try. Gotta make it count and not crap out with my calls. I was grateful for that, no doubt. With 800 or more positive cases of Covid 19 at Polunsky, I do not think we will get visits for years. I think there devils will get accustomed to holding us all in complete isolation. So I do believe I will think about adding friends to my visitors list I can call instead of visit. Maybe that will be positive consistent occurrence in my life. Think is I cannot make it happen. But you can. Damn anyone who says complaining makes it worse. You think it is outrageous we are being starved (one corn dog! Really!), that we go months without any communication and no visit? Complain. Message Sheree on instagram at “FreeCharlesFlores” and ask her how and what to do!
Breakfast: ½ pint of milk, 1 piece foodloaf, 1 peanut butter sandwich. Lunch: 1 bologna/cheese sandwich, 1 peanut butter sandwich, 1 small orange. Dinner : 1 meat patty, cheese sandwich, 1 peanut butter sandwich.
Breakfast: 1 biscuit, 4 oz oatmeal, 1 peanut butter sandwich. Lunch: 1 chicken patty sandwich. Lunch: 1 chicken patty sandwich, 1 peanut butter sandwich, 6 prunes. Dinner: 6 oz groundbeef, 2 corn tortillas, 1 peanut butter sandwich.
So here I am again living day to day, more than ever. Today was shower day. I have decided I will go to shower because they clean them with bleach, and I hope my neighbor does not have Covid 19 and breathes some out to get me after he comes out and I go in. I make sure not to touch anything and my face with showering.
We were told that we’d get to submit our 15,00 $ commissary list and receive our purchases today but then they said it was canceled. Why? These jokers are doing nothing but sitting around and walking through the pod once an hour, maybe. No recreation. Meals are a paper-sack, they pass that mess out in 30 minutes and that’s it. The medical quarantine is on the 3 week we are allowed 15,00 $ commissary food purchases. They are starving us, an extra ramen noodle pack will help right now. Rumor is that last Friday or Saturday, the quarantine period started over when new Covid 19 tests were found. Like the month lockdown is not something I have just been tortured with! So, I have a request. Please call # 936-967-80-87 (00.1 prefix from France) wardens Dickens, Jackson, Perez and ask them why are we not allowed to buy food? We’re being starved, what’s going on? When am I/ We (Death row + AG-Seg) prisoners not allowed to call loved ones? General Population inmates get two 20 minutes calls FREE, every week. They get recreation Dayroom time, every other hour, why have I not had recreation in a month?
July 26th 2020
Breakfast: ½ pint stale milk, 3 oz oatmeal, 2 boiled eggs, 1 handful of raisins. Lunch: 1 meat sandwich, 1 peanut butter sandwich, 1 handful of raisins. Dinner: 6 oz meat/potato mix, 1 biscuit, 1 peanut butter sandwich.
Sometimes the week-end seems very long. A friend here mentioned this and it feels that way. I think the absolute isolation with no end in sight cause the seemingly never ending “night time” we endure. Before, there was a visit to look forward to, a meeting with my legal team in the weeks or months ahead. Now, there is nothing but darkness and that is not easy to deal with. So the unknown has a new and improved form to terrorize in. That is when we must develop and maintain tunnel vision. Keep healthy and as fit as possible through some kind of physical exercise. Then set that daily goal and work towards it. When you reach it you feel good. And do all you can to be a positive and good person. Helping others when you can, not allowing cynical, negative thoughts to overwhelm us. Meditate, pray and work towards manifesting what is right and good in your life. This is my plan. This is where faith comes in, where the absolute Good shall prevail over evil in your life and in the world. Hope is manufactured every day. Every day I get out of this bed and I gather myself and get to the business of creating hope. Setting goals and using the mindset of focusing on the immediate goal to create the reliable satisfaction. Even if we at this point in time cannot see light at the end of the tunnel, but we must have faith and know light exists. We just have get to it! Keep moving forward and never give up!
Breakfast: ½ pint milk, 1 biscuit, 4 oz rice, 1 piece of coffee cake. Lunch: 2 biscuits, 1 chicken patty, 1 peanut butter sandwich. Dinner: 1 corn-do, 1 peanut butter sandwich, 1 handful raisins.
Shower day today, I went to shave but I thought about in regards to possible Covid 19 exposure. I noticed some guys who would never miss a shower nor leave their cells. I understand but wonder where the line needs be drawn on possible exposure? Allergies are really acting upon me and have been during the past week. It seems like it’s very bad and I am not the only person who’s being affected. Not long ago, I heard about African Sahara dust and wonder if this dust has arrived in Texas late, like Covid 19? It’s not easy to write when I have a head full of wool but I will do my best. We were told that we “might” be allowed to go to commissary this coming Thursday, and spend an entire 15 $. That was supposed to have happened last week, but it didn’t. I hope you called and asked why not! I am in a cage, one of 500 cages they have here and I see no one to ask about such things. Not for days. I do believe the situations is out of control and they just got started with trying to deal with it. I remember when my friends would laugh at me here when I told them to buy extra coffee, ramen noodles, beans and rice because we’re going to get locked down! Nobody’s laughing anymore. So the wild roller coaster ride continues.