Journal 7.22.17

Saturday – Today is letter writing day. It’s the weekend – no recreation so I can focus on what needs to be done and not be distracted. For the past two weeks I’ve been on legal writing and had to power through all of that. When I go back to Dallas County I will not have my type writer, so all my typing must be done before I go back. I’m almost done with my third project – but must respond to correspondence today.

Journal 7.20.17

Thursday – I’ve been getting a lot of work done writing all day and sometimes into the night. This morning I got a letter from my attorney and was informed that our evidentiary hearing will be moved into October. One of our experts had a family emergency and could not be at the hearing, so it’s being delayed for a month. The bright side is it’s only a 30 day delay! I can deal with that no problem. I’m thinking an extra 30 days will help us. All my projects will be done for sure and I’ll have done my absolute best effort. In the end all will come to pass when the Universe deems it’s time and when She says it’s time – it’s time!

Texas Death Row prisoner Robert Pruett has been given an execution date for October 12, 2017

June 26, 2017

This morning I found myself listening to the noontime news broadcast from the Texas State Network News when I heard the report that Rupert Pruett has been given another execution date for October 12, 2017.

Once again a friend of mine has been given an execution date and moved to death watch where those who have active execution dates are kept under 24-hour surveillance via CCTV camera in their cells. This time when I heard the awful news I had flashbacks to my time on deathwatch. You see Robert Pruett was also on death watch with me when I was housed there living under the evil threat of an execution date.

There is something about going through such an experience with another human being. A bond is forged because we made it through that living hell alive. It might seem nice and civil and humane to the outside viewer, seeing a man on Texas death row with an execution date. This is not a third world country where they are physically torturing us before them devils take our lives. They even begin to treat the Texas Death Row prisoner like a human being at the end, but it’s still a living hell.

It is psychological torture not only for the condemned prisoner but for all the family and friends who care for him too. When a person finds himself on death row it’s  not just him living with a death sentence, everyone who cares for him lives with it too.

I lived through that with Robert Pruett. And I know this is not his first time having an execution date. It’s his fourth or fifth time I believe. Try to wrap your mind around that. It took me a year to get over the trauma I experienced during my five months on death watch. How do you get over four or five more extended stays on death watch? I have no idea.

If nothing else my brother Robert Pruett know how it goes and what to do while on death watch most importantly he knows the rule – never let them devils see you sweat! I know he will make sure however this trip through living hell ends to never let them see him sweat. Stay strong brother.

Peace Hope & Freedom!

Charles D Flores #999299

Journal 7.18.17

Tuesday – The best thing I can receive in TX DR is a visit and today was visit day for me. I woke up this morning thinking about my visit – I refused recreation to go shower early and be ready. By 2 PM I was starting to worry but by 2:50 PM I was being escorted to the visit room and beginning my visit with Abby at 3 PM – in the nick of time! Yahoo! This is my third visit with Abby and she is an amazing friend. I have the best visits ever with her. When we visit the walls of that sucky little cage they put me in fall away, the glass that separates us melts away, taking that stupid phone thing we must speak through with it, and its just us laughing, talking and having the best time ever. That’s why visits are the best thing I can get here. And with a forever friend – they are awesome!

When the visit was over I was feeling great – riding that wave of positive energy a wonderful visit always gives me and was being escorted back to my cell which requires me stopping at the legal booths to strip out – the guards check my clothes etc. to make sure I was not bringing back any WMD! So I turn the corner and my brother Big Tai is in one of the booths. As we strip out we also have a conversation – I got to talk to him for 4-5 minutes and this is important. Big Tai is Taichin Preyor – the next DR prisoner on the execution list. His execution date – the day these devils plan to murder him in the name of justice – is July 27, 2017. I ask him what’s the word on his appeal? He responds that what is legal team is saying “sounds good” – we’ll see. Then he smiles and tells me he’s on his was over there where I’m to to eat some enchiladas! Meaning these devils won’t get him – he’ll win a stay and be moved off death watch to the pod where I’m at. So it is in our hearts and minds may it be in the third dimension I told my brother I loved him and he told me he loves me even more. Now I’m in my cell and I can’t stop thinking about him.

Texas Death Row prisoner William Rayford has been given an execution date for January, 30 2018

This past Friday night I was listening to the Prison Show radio program when I heard the news that William Rayford has been given an execution date for January 30, 2018. I heard someone talking about this a few days ago and until now it was only rumor and not confirmed news. Now I know it is true.

Rayford is from Dallas County and I know him well as he’s been on Texas death row for over a decade. The years blur together for me but to the best of my recollection Rayford’s previous appeal attorney died on him about five years ago. As a result he had his federal appeal picked up by a Dallas, TX area attorney named Bruce Anton. I remember when Rayford first received his new attorney he was very happy because he thought Bruce Anton was a top quality attorney. I used to think that too until I was almost executes because of Bruce Anton’s carelessness. You see, Bruce Anton used to represent me and I know what it’s like to be in Rayford’s shoes.

So when I heard the news on my friend Rayford I took a deep breath and sent out a silent prayer for him in hopes that Bruce Anton will do all he can for my friend and save him from the death machine in Texas. Because that is what anyone needs when they find themselves with an execution date they need an attorney who’s giving their case 100%.

I am not sure why the Dallas County district court set Rayford’s execution date for January 30, 2018. That is a double edged sword for a death row prisoner. On one hand it gives his legal team a long time to do all they can for him to win a stay and stop the execution if they have not written him off as a goner! On the other hand he will be on death watch, the real death row, for seven months. That is not an easy thing to deal with to say the least.

I hope to see Rayford soon and remind him that it’s not over till it’s over and he has to stay on his attorney making him do all he can do win a stay of execution. Every man on death watch who faces an execution date must do all he can and make it as hard as possible for the executioners in Texas to take their life. Stay strong Rayford! I’m thinking about you brother!

In the struggle.

June 24, 2017

Charles D Flores #999299

Texas Death Row News

June 12, 2017

Texas Death Row prisoner Clinton Lee Young has been given an execution date for October 26, 2017.

Last Thursday, June 8, I was in my cell listening to the Texas State Network News noon report when I heard the news that Clinton Lee Young had been given an execution date for October 26, 2017.

I had immediate flashbacks to the morning I recieved the fateful letter from my then attorney telling me I had been given an execution date. I know exactly what that feels like. I know how it feels to be taken to the Texas death row major’s office and be informed by this administration that you have an execution date and be immediately moved to death watch. That is one of the worst experiences you can imagine because your death sentence just became “real.” The clock has begun to tick and if you are not able to stop the run-away-train to the death house these devils have put you on they will kill you.

I remember the first time I met Clinton Lee Young in early 2002. The actual date is fuzzy in my memory but I remember him well. He was a very young man who’d just arrived on Texas death row and I did my part in sharing what I learned about how things were here with him and we managed to get along well enough. Throughout the years I’ve gotten to know Clinton Lee Young well and we’ve become friends. I think of him now and his family, his mother and his sister who have stood by his side all these years and what this terrible execution date is doing to them. I know Clinton, he’ll face this execution date with courage and do the best he can with it. I know this but I worry about his family because when a human being is on death row all of his loved ones are on death row with him.

I hope to see Clinton in the visit room soon to let him know I’m thinking of him and wish him the very best, and one more thing — NEVER LET THEM SEE YOU SWEAT BROTHER!

Looking Forward – Dreaming

June 11, 2017

“A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is a reality.”          –John Lennon

Dear Friends,

As I sit in this 9×12 foot cell that I’ve been locked away in for nearly two decades I think back to when I was first sent to Texas death row. In 1999 I was just another indigent prisoner of color from Dallas, Texas, a city known for the racist views it’s government officials have against minorities, and I’d just been through a sham trial and sentencing process that I did not understand and had no idea how I had ended up on Texas death row. But I had dream and this dream was to some how, some way, prove that I was an innocent man who had been wrongly convicted. Having a dream at this point in my life was what kept me going, kept the fire within me alive and refused to allow this situation to break me.
Not too long after that a lovely lady named Nelly Paulou from France wrote me and after becoming friends and me sharing what happened to me she became the leader of a Struggle for Justice group that supported me. It was at this point the dream I was dreaming alone started to become reality because I was no longer alone in my dreaming, now many were sharing the same dream with me and working towards manifesting this grand dream into reality.

That was about 15 years ago. To say the least it’s been a harrowing ride and last year I lived under the threat of an execution date for over 5 months. That was the most intense and traumatic event that I have ever experienced and over a year later I am just now overcoming the post traumatic stress syndrome that I was left with which resulted from getting within 6 days of my execution. I think of that time now and what kept me strong, and what was me lifeline was the fact that I knew I was not alone. That me friends and supporters who began dreaming with me were still be me side along with so many more. And what happened next was that my very dire situation went to a once in a lifetime opportunity to prove that I was wrongfully convicted and am Innocent in the evidentiary hearing that’s now set for September 5, 2017. This development is nothing less than a miracle that was manifested by so many friends dreaming together.
And it would not have happened without the love, compassion and support from my friends all across France and the world! Who would have thought that little ole me would somehow find a way to share my dream with others and endure this experience that’s killed so many and now be poised to win my freedom and walk out of this terrible place forever?!

It would have not been possible alone. I would have been pushed out of existence on June 2, 2016 the day the State of Texas had marked for my legal revenge/murder if I did not have each one of you holding me in thought and in prayer and doing all you’ve done and continue to do to support me. For this I am eternally grateful. Not just for me but for all the men and women on death row across this country. Surviving the insanity of being sentenced to death would be impossible without the love and compassion of all those who stand against the death penalty. And for all my brothers and sisters I say thank you!

Things are very exciting for me right now. In less than 90 days I will have the evidentiary hearing and I know that with the continued thoughts, prayers and support from all who stand with me the outcome of the hearing will be a foregone conclusion. In a year, maybe 2 I’ll be living the dream we’ve shared for so long. I’ll be leaving this new age death camp and will live the next 40 years of my life in freedom! I live this, breathe this, believe this and have complete faith in this outcome; and with you by my side who will be able to stand against us and succeed? No one!

LOVE PEACE HOPE & FREEDOM

Charles D Flores, No 999299

Looking Forward – Forever Friends

By: Charles D Flores #999299

June 4, 2017

I began this epic saga/journey/nightmare, whatever name fits best, in 1999. Over 19 years ago I was sent to Texas Death Row for a crime I did not commit and I’ve been fighting for my life ever since. To put it mildly, this 19 year experience in my life has not been easy. More often that I would care to admit I as not sure I was going to make it. But when I would find myself on my knees having been knocked down by a savage blow that life had give me, what would always give me strength to get back on my feet again was the love and compassion that my friends would give me. I think back to the summer of 1999, and my first friend that I met via correspondence was a young guy named Antonie. He was a law student in Switzerland and he was a very good friend. He was with me when I first began my confinement on Texas death row and I was in contact with him for several years. They next friend was a lovely lady from England named Debbie. She was such a positive influence in my life, helping me mature, learn to grow, and become a better human being. While we no longer exchange letters like we used to, we’re still in contact and close friends.

I can’t begin to count the friends that have come into my life since then. Some stay for a season maybe two, and others are friends for life and I call these amazing people forever friends. Each friend that comes into my life plays a critical part and I believe has been connected with me by the Universe for a specific reason. Maybe I’m feeling less than 100% and so are they, and together by helping each other with love, compassion, and support we can heal each other. Others might even be able to visit me and get to know me in person! That’s as good as it gets on Texas death row. Visits are the best thing we get here and mail/correspondence is a close second. Everyone plays a part in life and I know there is no chance or coincidence about it.

Without a doubt the best friends that I have ever had in my life I’ve met as a result of being on Texas death row. Friends who have blown me away with their love and compassion, friends who have made me want to be a better person because they are such wonderful people and I can’t stand the thought of disappointing them. It’s amazing to say that and I feel so blessed to have these kinds of true friendships by my side through thick and thin.

19 years is a long time. I think back to the beginning when I was first sent to Texas death row and I would not allow myself to dare think about what it would be like to leave this place on day. I had severely incompetent trial attorneys and as soon as I got to death row I was saddled with 2 more state level court appointed attorneys who were worse! These were the lawyers who were supposed to help me get out of this place? With guys like them representing me I didn’t need enemies! So I was not thinking about freedom because I knew the consequences of having ineffective assistance of counsel on state level appeals by my attorneys. It usually meant you were DEAD! So much so that I got to within 6 days of being DEAD which was a direct result of these original state level attorneys’ incompetence. But that’s a story for another day. My point is that for a long time I’ve been engaged in the fight of my life, trying to stay alive because where there is life there is hope! And when I’d find myself on the ground beaten and bruised, the love, compassion and support that my friends had for me was the well from which I drew the strength required to get back up and continue the fight. For this I am forever grateful.

In January of 2017, I met a new friend. From the first letter I knew she was special and that w’d be the best of friends and she would help me and more importantly I’d be able to help her. Call it intuition, call it whatever, I just knew! Since January I’ve gotten to know my friend quite well and she just amazes me and makes me want to be a better person. She’s my teacher and is currently teaching me about feminism, which I think rocks! She’s teaching me about websites and hashtags and all kinds of super cool stuff which I love! And this month I will meet my friend  at visit! I’m so excited about that and looking forward to it. And we’ve even talked about the things we’d like to do together when I’m free which is amazing and so thrilling that it gives me chills because I KNOW this is going to happen. I know something else too. I know my friend Abby who I met in January is also a forever friend and that realization brings me joy like you wouldn’t believe! I’m a blessed man to have friends like mine and to everyone I say thank you for being who you are, for caring about me, and for allowing me to care for you!

LOVE PEACE HOPE & FREEDOM!

Charles D Flores

Chance of a Lifetime – Evidentiary Hearing

By: Charles D Flores, #999299

Monday, May 29, 2017

I have a brother here named Big G and not too long after I won the stay of execution and evidentiary hearing I was blessed to be moved to a cell near Big G which gave me a confidant I could talk to. Now G is a special guy he is on his own spiritual journey which has a Buddhist flavor and is very mature, insightful, and I value his option and advice. One day we had an opportunity to have outside rec together and this means we’re put outside on the 2 recreation yards that are side by side and can have a private conversation. While enjoying this rec time together I expressed to my brother that it seemed like an unusual number of small things in my life were going wrong. Nothing big or life altering, just a bunch of small annoying stuff that makes life a little harder (and sometimes a lot harder) than it should be. Big G’s immediate response was, “That’s because you’re getting ready to go home! When a miracle like that is happening in your life all kinds of small stuff goes wrong and that’s the enemy trying to knock you off course.” My brother told me this about 8-9 months ago and when he said it I heard the ring of absolute truth in his words. He was correct in every way and I’ve kept that truth with me since then.

I’m about 90 days away from the chance of a lifetime that is my evidentiary hearing. For the past month my life has been completely centered around this event because I must give my absolute best effort in making this opportunity count. I’m not going to get 10-15 evidentiary hearings. No, I’m getting one and in this evidentiary hearing I must lay it all on the line and make sure I give my 100% best effort, then trust The Universe to see to manifesting part II of the miracle that is winning my freedom. During this intense period of my life my mantra has been, “let nothing or no one distract you from your purpose and goal!” This is what I keep telling myself but it’s not easy!!

In the past 30 days I’ve experienced more than a few unpleasant surprises in my life. Nothing that spells the end of me (I don’t think!), but still a bunch of drama that I do not want or need. And during those occurrences I keep telling myself to let nothing or no one distract you from your true purpose and goal in life!

I know that when thins get like this in life I must go within myself and once again find my balance and center and I do this with my spiritual practice. When I tend to my spiritual practice (Prayer Meditation Visualization) I find absolute truths that I forget when I allow myself to be caught up in the drama, distractions, and unpleasant surprises that come my way.

I am one with the infinite Source and the Source is one with me. This morning I once again found this truth that I am connected to the Source and the Source connects me to all living things. I was so grateful to be able to find this absolute truth once more and be remembered of it when I needed it the most. This was an “Aaaaah” moment for me and when I allowed myself to merge back with the Source I felt my balance and center lock back in place.

When I’m dealing with these annoying issues that have gone wrong I all too often see myself as separate from the Source because it is second nature to me and a very bad habit to take such things personally and in the process allow ego to hijack my person. Ego is always waiting for me to falter and when I’m under stress it makes its move, whispering in my ear, “They did that to you? Who in the hell do they think they are?!!!” And with this great like makes me believe that I’m separate from the Source. Because no one knows us better than our ego, it has been with us since the day we became conscious of right from wrong.

This morning I remembered this great truth that we all come from the same Source and to be clear the Source has more than one name. It’s also knows as God, Universe, the Word, the Holy Spirit, etc. The key is setting ourselves connected to all living things, people, trees, and animals. If I can see myself in everyone than I am connected.

Of course this is much easier said than done. When I find myself facing others who have declared themselves my enemies and wish ill will, even execution, upon me, it’s very difficult. But that’s my goal and living life in gratitude gets me closer to it. As does “thinking from the end, ” which is through visualization seeing myself surrounded by the people and things I need in my life as a free man; and meditation and prayer.

For me that is the antidote to my ego’s evil plans. More meditation means less wgo and that’s something I could really use.

These many attaches from the enemy are proof that I’m close. He is concerned that I will reach my ultimate goal, and he ought to be! Nothing will stop me from pushing into freedom and part II of my life forever free and far away from here.

Love, Peace, Hope & Freedom

Charles D Flores

I MUST…

WHERE AS I, CHARLES DON FLORES, being an American of Mexican descent on death row for a crime I did not commit;

I MUST–Live my life in gratitude and give my love and forgiveness to those who stand with me and also those who do not;

I MUST–Learn all the lesson’s life continues to teach me & in turn share what I experience with others, to listen and learn, love, forgive, and live each day to the fullest

WHERE AS I, CHARLES DON FLORES, being an American of Mexican descent on death row for a crime I did not commit;

I MUST–Live my life in gratitude and give my love and forgiveness to those who stand with me and also those who do not;

I MUST–Learn all the lesson’s life continues to teach me & in turn share what I experience with others, to listen and learn, love, forgive, and live each day to the fullest;

I MUST–Always remember my brothers and sisters whose lives have been taken in the name on (in)justice; always be their voice, a voice for those who have none;

I MUST–Always strive to be a man of honor and respect whose lives his life with integrity; being the man my mother and father are proud of;

I MUST–Continue to fight for justice and freedom and never accept anything less; give my all to the fight for my life, and when at last free fight to abolish the death penalty until it is gone forever;

I MUST–On my worst day be my best, never growing discouraged or indulging in doubt or self pity; always keeping my head held high, spring in my step and my eyes on the prize;

I MUST–Stand against all injustices, be a protector of the weak, infirm, and unable; to always be there for others and help those in need;

I MUST–Protect the Earth and the mountains and the trees, the flowers and all that is green; protect Her water which is the source of life for all living things;

I MUST– Each day be a patient, loving and kind human being as I can; affirming the fact that the twelve who judged me incapable of this were wrong!

BECAUSE I AM AN INNOCENT MAN who has been condemned to death I am becoming the man I am destined to be; and for this miracle I thank you!

By Charles D. Flores

April 2, 2017